Sometimes.
But not always.
Couple of months of GOOD running. Working upwards, week by week on distance. Building up for potential marathon. BUT.....in the couple of weeks of 50 and 60km a week I put on 2KG. TWO FREAKING KILOGRAMS!!!!! I started this running lark to loose weight. I could sit on my arse and eat properly and not put on weight. So to be doing great training and having the issues I do with my body, I got the shits and gave up. Only to miss it terribly. So I started again. So, it is fair to say that my "marathon" training has been shite. More than shite. Totally inadequate. So the wee man who does the marathon stuff at Fitzroy Falls called me ask me to start early so that I didn't hold them all up on the day, so I said "dont worry about it" and dropped back to the 10km and so today the guy I was meant to be running with has told me his friend is only running it cos she knows I am slow and can run with us, so BUGGER IT we are running a very slow, untrained for, mawathon. You must call it a MAWATHON. Cos that's what it is.
And my dad is dying. And I dont really know what to do about that.
And also my job situation is difficult. I have been offered a new job which I really like but there are some bits of mad argy bargy going on - and it will mean a relocation or mad serious travel. Although I really LOVE my current job, except it is only a contract. So I am lying awake at night worrying about it all.
And my marriage is breaking up. Well it has been for ages and ages, it is just a matter of extracting myself from it.
So all in all, life is kinda fucked. And I have a lot of pimples as a result. And I cry a lot. So I am not really equipped for a marathon or a new job or anything really. I seem to do drinking quite well though.
So do I take new job, do I sell house or rent it out, do I go home to see dad, do I run marathon or not, do I leave husband or try and make it work, or do I just try and forget everything and go for a run?
But not always.
Couple of months of GOOD running. Working upwards, week by week on distance. Building up for potential marathon. BUT.....in the couple of weeks of 50 and 60km a week I put on 2KG. TWO FREAKING KILOGRAMS!!!!! I started this running lark to loose weight. I could sit on my arse and eat properly and not put on weight. So to be doing great training and having the issues I do with my body, I got the shits and gave up. Only to miss it terribly. So I started again. So, it is fair to say that my "marathon" training has been shite. More than shite. Totally inadequate. So the wee man who does the marathon stuff at Fitzroy Falls called me ask me to start early so that I didn't hold them all up on the day, so I said "dont worry about it" and dropped back to the 10km and so today the guy I was meant to be running with has told me his friend is only running it cos she knows I am slow and can run with us, so BUGGER IT we are running a very slow, untrained for, mawathon. You must call it a MAWATHON. Cos that's what it is.
And my dad is dying. And I dont really know what to do about that.
And also my job situation is difficult. I have been offered a new job which I really like but there are some bits of mad argy bargy going on - and it will mean a relocation or mad serious travel. Although I really LOVE my current job, except it is only a contract. So I am lying awake at night worrying about it all.
And my marriage is breaking up. Well it has been for ages and ages, it is just a matter of extracting myself from it.
So all in all, life is kinda fucked. And I have a lot of pimples as a result. And I cry a lot. So I am not really equipped for a marathon or a new job or anything really. I seem to do drinking quite well though.
So do I take new job, do I sell house or rent it out, do I go home to see dad, do I run marathon or not, do I leave husband or try and make it work, or do I just try and forget everything and go for a run?
None of them trivial problems. Perhaps with the exception of running a marathon I suppose.
ReplyDeleteWhen Dad died all I wish I could have done was have spent more time talking to him about things that whilst he was alive prob meant nothing. Now they seem like some of the most valuable conversations of my life.
To me though, whilst running is prob the least important issue you mentioned, running became the most significant. It was only through running. Both alone and with friends that i managed (past and present) to deal with the bigger issues.
That's why I miss running when I can't train regularly. The mediating qualities it brings me. As Im injured currently and can't run anyway, this clears SWMBO to run when ever you want. Feel free to call her Im more than happy to look after Evie.
I'm also running a frickin mawathon next week that I'm woefully under prepared for.
ReplyDeleteBut apart from that, I've got way less on my plate than you.
Go with your heart Freddo.